Love That Isolate

Is it weird to crave for love? He asked himself. He knows that he really do not deserve any love at all. He who do not know how to love the others really do not have the rights to request someone to love him. He was weak and also a coward. How can a person be like this unless there's something wrong with him. Everyone stares at him as if he was a retard. He also likes it when people thought of him that way as he do not deserve any of it. He was in absolute isolation like how an orphan would be. However, he has parents who doesn't even care about him or what he does. He might as well thought of his parents as dead. He stays away from anyone and shut himself off from the rest of the world. Was it a normal action to wait for an angel to appear? Could it be angel was evil too? Could there be no angel at all? It was all just a lie then. He mumbled.